Sorry kiddos, Friends Only from now on.

poopman4evr: i just gave ivan the funniest poem in the world
poopman4evr: ok
ikillprepz4fun06 received C:\Documents and Settings\VANESSA\My Documents\download\ikillprepz4fun06\The Flaming Elmo.wmv.
ikillprepz4fun06: bk. O really? What's it about?
poopman4evr: ive known ivan for so long he fucked me up the ass but he did it so rong but i love him no matter what i think its my turn to fuck him up the butt
poopman4evr: lol
poopman4evr: n e ways movie is done watch i gots to go
poopman4evr: ttyl

Hmm...it's been awhile since I've updated- over a month now.

Well, I took the SAT last Saturday. Funfunfun. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be changing my ACT testdate from this Saturday to the next test date. (B/c I'm going to a winter workshop at the Art Institute of CA-San Diego for the culinary arts program, and I'm taking Mathew.)

I have no love life. No crushes, no secret admirers (that I know of). Nothing. And that's fine with me. I don't feel lonely; I don't want a significant other. I'm content. And I truly feel like I'm over all my X's. But I guess if someone asked me out, and I did like them to some degree, I guess I'd say yes. I think this guy likes me, b/c he acts kinda strange around me. Or maybe I scare him. I dunno.

I gave blood for the first time on Tuesday at school. It was kind of a long wait, but it was worth it. The worse part was when they tested my iron level- it hurt like a bitch. What it is, they have this little square thing that pricks your finger- it reminded me of a stapler. (Yes, I have had a staple or two in my hand at one time or another.) I've gotten a lot of blood tests done over the past few months, so I was used to the pain when they put in the needle- but it hurt slightly more b/c the needle was bigger.

Before I could give blood, I had to go change my shirt b/c it was a long-sleeve, and when rolled up, it was too tight...so I changed into the shirts they were giving out. Apparently, I filled up the bag pretty fast. There was this guy who had been lying on a stretcher next to mine FOREVER. He was sweating pretty badly too, and he felt all sick and stuff afterwards.

I think I'll apply to UCSD, SDSU (gotta rush the test scores), UH Manoa, and UH Hilo. (San Diego, general area where I live, and then the other two are in Hawaii.) Something funky is going on with the websites, I can't access the applications. Dammit.

I'm going to see the Harry Potter movie tomorrow with a bunch of friends for Erica's b-day party, and then, if her parents let her, Katie's gonna spend the night at my house. I'm looking at HP photos from the movie.

Uhm, I think that's it for now.

I'm excited. I'm making a b-day cake for T'pring! This is my first time making someone a b-day cake. It's gonna be a two layer with strawberry jam in the middle. (That's her fav). And white frosting will cover all of it. (Her fav too). (Oh, it's a white cake as well. Well....the box says "yellow" but same thing.) I almost burned the cakes though. (Plural.....you need two cakes to make a two-layer...at least the kind I'm making).

Today was our field trip to the San Diego county courthouse. It was pretty interesting. Connie's so sweet. She's the best. But I am so exhausted! I wonder why. Oh and the Horton Plaza mall is STUPENDOUS!! Jeepers. And the Hot Topic there has more stuff than the one by my house. (At least It seems that way. Different Hot Topics usually have several items that the others don't.)

I'm gonna be a pirate for Halloween!! I'm excited. And I'm supposed to go trick-or-treating with Kara, Jamie, and some of her friends. (YAY! I haven't gone trick-or-treating or dressed up since Elementary school! Yes, I know, I'm a loser.) And Tomorrow night is the Fallout Boy concert!!! YAY! And then Sunday is my b-day party. Oh man, I hope I didn't invite "too many" people, but I prolly did.... eeeepers. I still gotta buy stuff like.... *shrug* typical party stuff. I also want to buy bags of candy and pour them into a big bowl so my friends can have candy!

I bought a pirate hat and black lights (on strings, ya know, like christmas lights). If the pirate hat doesn't go with my outfit very well, I'll return it, but I thought I looked cute in it. *shrug* As for the blacklights, it'll just look kool, and I've been wanting blacklights for my room for awhile...and they were only like $7. Sweet, huh?

Monday is also the senior breakfast. I'm pestering Dustin to hurry up and get money so we can buy the tickets tomorrow. And I wanna borrow his sabre. Well, I'm gonna go check on my cakes, and I need to do dishes, take a shwoer, hmw, and watch Southpark hopefully.

Rosa Parks


Rosa Parks and Bill Clinton


Rosa Parks died yesterday, October 24, 2005, at age 92. "People across the United States paid tribute to the late Rosa Parks, the courageous black seamstress whose refusal to give up her city bus seat to a white man half a century ago sparked the US civil rights movement."

20 People You Can Think Of Right Off Your Head

1. kyle
2. amnada
3. danielle
4. gail
5.vanessa
6.paula
7.patty
8. baker
9. taylor
10. jennifer
11. rion
12. jessica
13. t.j
14. matt
15. krista
16. kirsten
17. regina
18. joe
19. gina
20. justin

How did you meet 13? hes a drummer... enough said

***What would you do if you never met 5? words cant explain i love her soo much sometimes i feel like were dating

What do you honestly think of 10?o goodness.. honestly.. right now were getting along pretty well!

Have you ever liked 3? well thats our lil secret

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple? if rion liked girls sure why not?

Do you think 12 is hot? yea shes pretty fly!

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple? umm maybe a while ago bu now no

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14? hes a certified 20+

What language does 19 speak? pig latin?? pff i dont know

Who is 8 going out with? as of right this second i believe no one, i know hwo he wants to go out w/ though!!

Is 9 a boy or a girl? hmm well to me a girl... to everyone else... a boy!!! lol

When was the last time you talked to 18?monday

What is 1's favorite artist? omg journey, guns n roses, and greenday o yea and all my emo bands!!!

Does 4 have any siblings? yea a brother

Would you ever date 7? heck yes!!!

Is 15 single? she confuses me?

What is 5's middle name? uh oh i dont know

What is 2's fantasy? to take long walks down the beach w/ me as her partner. be a TEEN TITAN, be just like me, have a really hot makeout partner,

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple? plain old NO

What school does 16 go to? greenfield middle GOTTA REPRESENT BIATCHES!!

What school does 1 go to? ... granite :(

Where does 9 live? like across the frekin street from granite

Would you make out with 10? thats a thing called incest!!!! kinda gross

Are 5 & 6 best friends? they dont even know eachther

"Spare me just three last words, I love you is all she heard..."


I love Hawthorne Heights. Too bad I couldn't go see them in concert. :(

Awww maaan! The A7X concert is also sold out! Dammit! Ah well, I did wait 'till the last minute to even consider going. Blah. Maybe I'll go to the Coheed and Cambria one. *shrug*

Ah yeah, good thing Chels and I bought our tickets early for the Nintendo Fusion Tour- they're all sold out! Haha! Yeah, we're gonna get to see Fall Out Boy <3, The Starting Line <3, Motion City Soundtrack <3, Boys Night Out <3, and Panic! At The Disco. I am soooo looking forward to this concert! (Friday, October 28th!!)

Let's see...what other concerts that are coming up that I want to go to....
-Can't go to the Avenged Sevenfold concert [:'(
-Can't go to the Coheed and Cambria concert [:'(

-Monday, November 7th: Hawthorne Heights <3, Silverstein <3, Bayside, and Aiden. $14, 7PM @Casbah
-Maybe the Death Cab for Cutie show. @Casbah
-Wednesday, November 16th: Trapt<3, Blindside, Aphasia. 17$, 7PM @ SOMA
-Thursday, November 17th: Relient K<3, MxPx, Rufio<33, Go Betty Go. $18.50, 7PM, @ The House of Blues
-Friday, November 18th: A Static Lullaby, Haste the Day, Halifax, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Bedlight for Blue Eyes. $12, 7PM @ SOMA

Oh goddammit!! I was talking to Taylor today and she was all excited 'cuz I'm a "Show Virgin". LoFL, she was going crazy! And she likes FOB and MCS, so I invited her to come with me and Chels and stuff, and then she could claim my show virginity, lol! But now I'm totally bummed b/c she CAN'T come, cuz there are no more tickets!! Aw bummer! :(

I got my blood drawn today. Woo hoo.

I can't get into my damn photobucket! I forgot my password for it, and I forgot my password for my email address where the password would be sent, and apparently, I FORGOT MY DAMN HOTMAIL ADDRESS!!!

It's the animal instinct to pass on our jeans that drives us into sex. Love is merely the safety net- especially for women. In a test, men were more disturbed by their wives cheating on them, than the wives were of their husband having sex with another woman. Women were more distressed if the men had an EMOTIONAL attachment to another woman. Makes sense, women understand that guys are horn-dogs- they have plenty of sperm to go around- plenty of chances to pass on their genes- UNLIKE the WOMEN. Women want the safety of the emotion called love so the male will stay and help protect her offspring.

Did you know anger is actually a secondary emotion? To what, you ask? Anything that has to deal with hurt/pain/sadness.... makes sense when you think about it.

Mom: "Fucking leave then!!"

Daughter: "Fine!"

~Later that night:

Daughter's friend: "R U okay?"

Daughter: "Yeah, I'm just fucking pissed off at my stupid fucking mother!"

~Mom telling daughter to leave= Rejection, which = Pain....



Sure, put yourself first, but would you do it at another's expense??

I FEEL FUCKING EMO

The Shadow On Your Wall, sounds cool, huh?

I get out by the time lunch swings around. Yep, I get out at 12:03 and start at 7AM. Hehe. Sounds like I'd have time for a job, huh? But I'm still debating b/c of my IB/AP Psych class and Honors Physiology.... English and Math seem like it'll be easy enough... hmm..Economics, not too sure yet... well, and I've decided to get down to being hardcore when it comes to my guitar. Yepyup, I'm gonna be pro before ya know it!!

Killswitch has some excellent lyrics. Ever have those CD's that just doesn't sound as good as it could be until you read the lyrics with the song?? Yeah, this is what happens with me usually.




"The End Of Heartache"- Killswitch Engage

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting

This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart




So, my school schedule starts at 7AM-12:03PM
1- Econ
2- Honors Physiology
3- Pre calc
4- Science Fiction/ Fantasy Lit
5- AP/IB Psychology

So, I didn't go to the Killswitch Engage concert..eh, whatever.

Brianna and I went out to El Cap Lake and did some wakeboarding (minus Brianna) and Tubing! Oh it was rough! I don't think I'm burned... just nicely cooked! =P

On Sunday, I was out riding with my uncle's and aunts on the quads. It was my first time using a manual. It was cool though! So, I'm feeling pretty proud of myself. I also hung out with Brittany and Marquis the day before Sunday, and yesterday. I'm crossing my fingers to be able to go to the Killswitch Engage concert this Friday at SOMA!!!

I should be able to go to Monte Vista's band camp tomorrow and check things out and possibly help Sara if needed.

I'm stoked about going wakeboarding this Sunday!! And riding season is coming up too! SCHWEET!! Well, I'm gonna go meet a friend at the mall,

~LATEZ!!

Wow, a lot has happened since I last updated.... but I don't feel like talking about it. I guess all there is to say is that I've certainly experienced a lot.

I have a new baby cousin! It's a girl!! Her name's Savannah! She's really cute!! My otehr little cousins are getting bigger! They're so cute!

Hmm... I also got FOB's new CD (From Under the Cork Tree)... and "Evening Out with Your Girlfriend" Remastered... I guess. I can't find the original one. I also have their DVD/EP. I still want to get "Take This To Your Grave".

Chelsea and I may do something today. I called Gina and gave her a belated happy birthday. Poor thing, she had to work on her birthday. I told her that when she finds out when she's next free, that I'd take her out for lunch or something. I also talked to Nicole online for a little yesterday. I miss that girl. I talked to Kara today, we might do something tomorrow. Ashely's out in Utah... pfft. Uhm, Sara's doing Monte Vista and Jessica is doing El Capitan. hich reminds me, I still have to convince my parents to let me transfer. (And then my principle.). Hmm... I'm kinda bummed b/c my SAT2 scores sucked donkey balls!! Ah well, and then I guess I'm not doing college courses this year. I'm also not working at Wendy's anymore. Thank goodness.

I suppose that's all for now. Latez!

<3 Nesquik